in the scent of morning coffee, sitting on your living room couch with your cat
curled up in a ball next to you. It’s in the way she knows if you’re sick or
tired, or when you just need her warmth.
It’s the way the clock looks at
5:00pm when you’ve just accomplished a busy day at work.
It’s in being able to call your
best friend and hearing her ask “what’s wrong?” before you can even get past
the “Are you busy?”
It’s in the stories your mother tells
you about her childhood home and about your grandparents. They’re stories you’ve
certainly heard before, but somehow they mean more each time.
It’s in the way your father can
make you laugh harder than anyone on the planet, and it’s in the feeling you
get when you sigh and chuckle to yourself, recognizing that you’re a lot more
like him than you thought.
It’s in meeting new people in your
boyfriend’s family and realizing you’re so lucky to be a part of such a down to
earth collection of people.
It’s in the feeling of going
broke on pay day, but noticing the weight off your shoulders after your bills have
It’s the taste of that first sip
of a cold beer on a 80° summer day. It’s also in the reminder that you’re 27
now, and you know you’ll be hung over as hell the next morning, but that you
just won’t care because drunken memories and the smell of a bonfire in your
hair means you’ve had a perfect night.
It’s in the way you wrap your
body around your boyfriend when you wake up in the middle of the night and realize
you still have time to sleep before your alarm goes off.
It’s the fact that even if you
only had 2 minutes to sleep, you’d still wrap your body around his the same way.
It’s in the way you feel the day
your sister calls to tell you she’s coming home to visit, and it’s in the
emptiness you feel when she leaves.
It’s also in knowing your sister
has found someone who can love her almost as much as you do for the rest of her
It’s in the pictures on your
apartment walls. The constant compliments on your shower curtain. It’s in the
way your kitchen always smells like your favorite Yankee Candle. It’s in
knowing that you might not be living in a castle, but that you still feel like
a queen when you come home to your king every night.
It’s in this blog, and knowing people
are reading it. It’s in the fact that people care enough about my little thoughts.
I feel like it was just yesterday I was fifteen years old, not feeling quite like a child anymore, but certainly not an adult yet either. I vividly remember craving summer nights of cruising around in cars with my friends, windows down, our music blaring through quiet neighborhoods. I yearned for summer nights on the sand, catching a good buzz off some cheap strawberry wine, not worrying about a curfew or having to call my parents. I wanted winter, but only for my birthday, and when that passed, I wanted summer. I wanted it to be summer every single day of my life. I wanted it now. "Dad, I can't wait to be an adult and take days off from work in June to go on trips and go to the beach and do whatever I want", I would scream on cold, frustrating nights full of homework and fights with my sister or girlfriends. "Don't wish your life away", he always said.
Now I'm 27, and it seems like I still wait all year for summer. Every December, even when my brain is decorated with holiday cheer, excitement for family to visit, and anticipation of the first snowfall, I find myself asking people, even strangers, is it summer yet??? They tell me no, but that Christmas is almost here, then comes the new year, and before you know it, summer will fly by and we'll be back here to this spot again. Really? Can't we just live in a world full of morning dew, tan feet, pool days, and endless bonfires? Can't we, can't we? When June arrived this year, as usual, I took out my calendar, and planned trips and days off from work to do whatever I want. In fact, I'm doing exactly that this Friday to celebrate my boyfriend's birthday. I'm an adult now, I can do that!! It's June, and it's almost officially summer, and I can get tan and stay out all night on the weekends and go to concerts and games and cookouts and everything else. And just other day, driving home from work anxious to beat the traffic and get home early enough, I called my dad. "Dad, I can't wait for Friday. I can't wait for my sunburn to fade. I can't wait for next weekend. I can't wait for the 4th of July, and August, and the whole Summer needs to get here now!! I can't wait!!" "Don't wish your life away," he said again. "Not while you're young. Time is everything, and you have a lot of it..." And suddenly, I was back in my old house, a fifteen year old girl, confiding in my diary that no one understood me. That I needed a break, that I needed peace. That I needed it to be June when school was over for a couple months. And with that memory came the bold realization that more than twelve years have passed since those confusing nights when I felt like no one got me. I really wish I could tell my fifteen year old self what I know now. June will come. It always does. And it will leave, but it will come again. With my phone wedged between my shoulder and neck, hands clenched on the steering wheel, I felt my throat get dry, a pause in my voice. "I know Dad, thanks for reminding me. You always have the best advice..."
of you may already know from following my Instagram, I recently collaborated with
the lovely ladies at Skinny Fox Detox and began their Signature 28 Day Detox. Now
before you get all apprehensive on me, hear me out. This detox does not make
you go to the bathroom every 5 minutes, it does not taste bad, and it does not
strip your body of necessary nutrients. In fact, it does the opposite of that!
Skinny Fox Detox consists of two different teas, one you drink every morning
for 28 days, and one you drink before bed every other night. Their “Hello
Gorgeous” morning tea is quite tasteful, very smooth, and is made up of strong
natural teas and herbs to help boost your metabolism and give you the energy
you need to get going for the day. The greatest part? This tea also fights fat
accumulation, and come on, everyone everywhere
wants something to help fight their
fat, and if you have no fat, well then we can’t be friends. Just kidding, we
can be friends, but I’m jealous of you.
evening “Goodbye Cherry Pie" tea is delicious! In my opinion, I liked the
evening tea even better than the morning tea. This tea is blended with a
natural but gentle, I repeat gentle laxative (Senna) to help rid your
body of unwanted and unnecessary toxins. Don’t worry though, the natural herbs
also included in this tea will help to prevent stomach cramping. I didn’t find
myself running to the bathroom, I just realized that the tea made going to the
bathroom a regular and easy experience. It is a detox after all, and it’s
helping you remove all those gross toxins that unknowingly build up in your
body. This tea is made in tea bags that
are oxygen whitened, so you don’t have to worry about bleach or other chemicals
entering your precious little body.
I was so excited when I got my detox package in the mail. They make it look so cute before you even try it out. I knew right away I was going to enjoy this experience!!
the morning tea is a loose leaf tea, not in a teabag, I decided to create my
own type of tea bag and used a natural coffee filter, put a spoon full of the
tea in the filter, and stapled it together to imitate a teabag. It worked out
just fine for me!!
Keep in mind, when detoxing, it’s important not to introduce
new toxins into your body, so you should try your best to try to keep away from
excess sugar, meat (which was clearly easy for me since I’m already a vegetarian), excessive alcohol, white pasta, bread, or rice, artificial sweeteners, etc. Everyone
slips up here and there, so don’t punish yourself if you do. Just wake up and
decide to be healthier the next day!
Here's a before photo:
Here's a during photo: (Don't mind the mess, we were sorting laundry in the background!)
Working out has been a regular part of my lifestyle... but I had taken a couple months off during the Fall months, and I knew I just didn't feel right. I needed to get back into my normal routine, and this detox gave me the perfect excuse to begin being myself again. Throughout
my detox with Skinny Fox, I cooked healthy meals and worked out regularly at the gym after work, which is helpful to compliment the effects of the detox. I did forget one or two times to drink the tea in the morning or night, but I’m only human, but I got right back on track as soon as I remembered. No one’s perfect, but the most perfect thing you can do for yourself is to take care of your health, and with summer and beach/bathing suit season coming, why not kick it off with your own detox experience?! I promise, you’ll be coming back to thank me!
I definitely experienced a very noticeable heightened energy
level, less bloating, little to no hunger pains, and a very light and clean feeling.
Here's an after photo taken just two days ago.... I'm quite happy with my results and can't wait to detox again!
you’re interested but don’t yet want to try it for 28 days, you’re in luck, you
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I’ve always had a strange relationship with April. One that both hurts and heals. One that excites me and lets
me down. It’s a month of perplexity, rainfall, a glimpse of sunbeams, and an eagerness that waits for June.
You see, April is famous for melting away my cool winter days,
removing the tense bitterness I see and feel everywhere, but it always leaves me wanting more. It really brings out the impatience in me. It
seems that April is a month of tricks and teases, beginning on its first day, considering it is a month that officially begins with fooling the
lighthearted, the most gullible of people… and that is really just what it does
to me. April fools me into believing that sunnier, more delicious days are right around the
corner, while the clouds then blush and laugh at me, crying buckets of drizzle
to rinse those hopes away. It puzzles me how sometimes the rain falls in a graceful pattern, and other times it pounds hard on my heart. How bizarre that the rainfall can both
keep me up all night, while other nights, it can soothe me right to slumber.
It’s alright, I suppose.
As I’ve grown up a bit, I’ve learned that April is a month of lessons.
It teaches me to wait for what I want, while not forgetting about where I am
and what it takes to get there. It gives me a taste of what’s to come, and it
reminds me to hold on for sweeter days ahead. It reminds me that it's okay to just dance in it's glimmer. April is really just the beginning of a beautiful ride, and if I can just hold on through the rain,
I’ve made it through the uphill climb.
I once had dreams of becoming a beautiful poet.....
When the people I used to know found out what I had been doing,
how I'd been living,
they asked me why -
but there's no use in talking to people who have a home.
They have no idea what it's like to seek safety in other people -
for home to be wherever you lay your head.
.......Don't leave me now
Don't say good bye Don't turn around Leave me high and dry.
Live fast. Die young. Be wild. And have fun. I believe in the country America used to be. I believe in the person I want to become. I believe in the freedom of the open road. And my motto is the same as ever:
"I believe in the kindness of strangers. And when I’m at war with myself I ride,
I just ride."
Who are you? Are you in touch with all of your darkest fantasies? Have you created a life for yourself where you can experience them? I have. I am crazy. But I am free.
People sing because they were born with the gift to. Some paint. Some dance. I write.
Some girls design clothes. Some guys design cars. Maybe some girls design cars and guys men design clothes, but my point is.... when you find something that you love doing, that comes so naturally to you, then you should do it. Do it in color, do it in different shapes, do it in different tones. If you can write songs that I sing along to, then I want to be your friend. If you can knit me a scarf that I want to wear with every outfit, then I want you to make me two. If you can make jewelry like Nicole and Aubrey Goulet, then I'd like like to take the time to dedicate this blog post to your talent and tell you how jealous I am of not only your pure skill, but of your patience, creativity, and eye for fashion. Two Stylish Sisters, this one goes out to you.
I recently had the honor of collaborating with two of Chelmsford's coolest girls. To me, being cool means being unique. Being authentic, being real. Having a passion and putting that passion into something tangible is something to be proud of. I think that's the coolest thing a person can do. And over an iced mocha at a little coffee shop in town, I got to hang with two pretty cool girls. The three of us sorted through some of the neatest jewelry I have ever seen, and then I went home and did some of my favorite things... I tried on a bunch of different clothes, changed my makeup a dozen times, and posed while my boyfriend took photos of me. Naturally, I took some selfies too...
As I was trying each piece on, picking out my favorites, and marveling over the different styles, I was thinking about which one I wanted to have my boyfriend buy me for Valentine's Day. I was also thinking about what outfits I could pair with each necklace, and how they would look on all my girlfriends. I started realizing that home made jewelry at such a reasonable price (everything you'll see here is under $35.00 by the way) is such a perfect gift...especially at this time of the month with the most romantic holiday of the year coming up! Plus a lot of girls like to be different, they like to stand out... I mean, who wants to blend in with the crowd and have the same open heart necklace or Michael Kors bracelet that every other girl on the block is wearing? They want something special, something that two beautifully brilliant sisters put their own brain power into crafting with their very own two hands. Michael Kors jewelry is cool, don't get me wrong, but I would much rather have something more rare.
I'd much rather wear something like this.
And you can easily have any of these pieces too, or maybe something that catches your attention even more so by simply clicking here. Or, you can go on Facebook and follow these two awesome girls here. While you're at it, head over to their Pinterest page and check out some more of their clever styles! Oh, and did I mention jewelry making is not the only skill Two Stylish Sisters have? They also make clothes and home decor as well, but I don't want to spoil it for you... Get yourselves on over to their website now, or better yet, have someone else go on the website for you, and let them buy you your favorite piece as the perfect Valentine's Day gift!
know, sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage, literally
just twenty seconds of embarrassing bravery….
I haven’t written here in a while…. It’s not because I haven’t
wanted to, and it’s certainly not because I haven’t had the words to say, but
it’s because I’ve been doing a lot of my writing in private. I tend to think
that even though a lot of my life is an open book that I’m so eager to share,
some pieces need to be held closely for a while, like a balloon string in my tightly
clenched fist, until I’m ready to let it go and let the world own it, view it,
and talk about it. But oftentimes, the fear of letting it go is what holds
I’m learning to understand this, though…figuring out how to be
more accepting of opinions, judgment, everything else the world will do with
your life, and sometimes it can be overwhelming. But why? Is change as terrifying as we all think it is?
Is it something that covers us, shields us, and prevents our hearts from taking
a chance, our pens from writing the truth, our songs from being heard? Or is
change the finest thing that could ever happen? Is it the most liberating
sensation when you feel the weight lifted, the shift of one emotion to the
next? Is change most electrifying when it opens the door to new light, new
colors, new people and a whole new world? Is it ok for your hands to shake when
you flip the page to the next chapter of your life? Or is change something that
stirs your whole body up, leaving you confused, scared, and afraid to show the
world the new you? My answer is this….. Who honestly cares? Does it really
matter in the grand scheme of things if you don’t have everyone’s approval? No.
All that matters is that you approve of yourself, and whether or not you are ready to change is up to you. If you want to let your heart bleed out, leaving bright red drops as you walk daringly into your new life, then you should.
Every now and then, you just need to be fearless enough to make that
decision, and right now, I’m so thankful for my brave heart.
I promise you, something great will come of it”